things i’ve earned, 2021
the orange cat and i have a
love-hate relationship
i have never been good at leaving scabs
the thin red lines that dot
my hands
my feet
begin to glow white
against the August tan
leftover on my skin.
scars
we go to Oklahoma in the summer
even though we all know from the start
it will end with the two of us
(fighting)
we last three days before we’re arguing
in the middle of a shabby chinese restaurant
i hit the table so hard that my egg drop soup
spatters across the placemats
i scream in the bathroom until my throat burns
(it never goes away)
fortune cookie
we walk by their house
a few nights after the protests
boys like that never lose anything
they feed off of our anger
and unsuspecting bodies
mace
preacher man on campus
points to me
and calls me a whore.
i take the book from his hands
and trace my lips up the spine
bible
my breasts did not grow,
as i had hoped,
but it made me feel like i was
doing the right thing.
vaccine
we lie flat on our backs in her bedroom
the sheets smell like cinnamon
there is no small talk
just laughter and steady breath
companion
hold my hand, paper lover.
i will squeeze tight as you scrape
the rot
from my insides;
replace it with numbness
and warmth from your body.
intimacy