limbo of an open wound
I think I am sterilizing the needle every time I open
my mouth and an apology slips out. I think it is useless
to stitch up a black hole when it would hurt less for pain
to enter than it would to be extracted.
I think I am done with painting a protective layer
over the accretion. I think I am done sheltering my story-
children, the words I keep hidden from outside in fear
they will come to know the wrench of an outing.
I am not an open book; I am a gaping wound
laid bare to avoid the ache of being lacerated accessible.
I think that this is maybe how most accidents
happen, this uncovering of holeness. I understand this,
though I am too tired to heal another wax-rip shriek.
In 2018 there was a man who fell into an art exhibit;
a sculpture at the Serralves Contemporary Art Museum
in Portugal called “Descent into Limbo” by Anish Kapoor
that consisted of a small square room with a black hole
in the ground, which in illusion looked endless
but in actuality was only two and a half meters deep.
When asked about the incident, Kapoor replied “What can I say?
It is a shame.”
I think I would mourn for those who have fallen into me
I think I would have sterilized my whole self in attempts
of amending travesty, in attempts of getting them out alive.